Karma… is she really a bitch? WAIT…do we even know if she’s
a she? Ok… never mind … gender bias
aside I do wonder about her/him/whatev…
I have always sort of thought that whatever you put out into
the universe will pretty much be the same crap you get back. It just made sense
to me. For as long as I can
remember, I’ve had this weird feeling that if I did something shitty…even if no one
would know but me then somehow or another I’d end up suffering for it although I wasn’t aware that it was called “karma”. There
have been plenty of times when I REEEAAAALLLYYYY wanted to do the easy thing or
selfish thing but I just couldn’t. I mean who knows what catastrophe would
befall me if I kept too much change in the drive-thru? Besides… I’ve been in
that position before and well, it’s just the right thing to do…
Don’t get me wrong… I’m no freaking saint. I fuck up too
(hahaha! Jk! Of course I’m perfect!). We all make mistakes but it just always
felt better to do “the right thing” even if I ended up losing something I
wanted in the process. I’m pretty sure if I had done the “wrong thing” then
whatever I gained would be tainted by it. As I’m writing this I realize it’s a little
dumb and cheesy but it’s the Golden Rule. Seems pretty simple to just treat
people the way you’d like to be treated. It’s not exactly rocket science.
I wonder if those people that ONLY think of themselves and
their immediate gratification (we ALL know some) ever look over their shoulder
for that bitch karma… What if karma only exists for those of us who care.
Although I have witnessed what I like to call karma kick some asses for me, I
wonder if that’s just me looking for consequences for being a douchetard. Maybe
I just REALLY wanted karma to be the bitch for me? Maybe those asshats that
wronged me are just unlucky and shit?
NAW… I like my way better.
I will continue to do the right thing even when the people
that benefit from my thoughtfulness don’t deserve it. I will keep taking the
high road even when I REALLY wanna get in the mud and start some shit. I am
going to try to keep only the people in my life that don’t need a karmic
intervention (some I’m stuck with… dang it). I will admit some of the shit I’ve
been through is my own damn fault for not treating MYSELF the way I want to be
treated.
I’m going to do my very best to stay on the good side of
karma. I just can’t imagine how I can go wrong with that.
I will also assume that every crappy thing that happens to
those that have wronged me is vengeance from the universe for being mean to me!
(I might need to do some karmic damage control for having such awful thoughts
but I’ll change an old lady’s tire or some shit just as soon as I can…)
